OF COURSE YOU'RE A FRAUD, OF COURSE WHAT PEOPLE SEE IS NEVER YOU. AND OF COURSE YOU KNOW THIS, AND OF COURSE YOU TRY TO MANAGE WHAT PART THEY SEE IF YOU KNOW IT'S ONLY A PART. WHO WOULDN'T? IT'S CALLED FREE WILL, SHERLOCK. BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT'S WHY IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BREAK DOWN AND CRY IN FRONT OF OTHERS, OR TO LAUGH, OR SPEAK IN TONGUES, OR CHANT IN BENGALESE--IT'S NOT ENGLISH ANYMORE, IT'S NOT GETTING SQUEEZED THROUGH ANY HOLE.

--David Foster Wallace